Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Life These Days.

Hello World!
Oh so much is going on right now. honestly i don't know how to handle it all. 
This has been the BEST summer of my life. Honestly it has, i have learned so much. My friends truly are amazing and i have no clue where i would be without them. My family means the world to me. And i have learned, the hard way, that when the rest of the world runs away, your family will ALWAYS be there for you. My boyfriend has helped me quite a bit too. I've learned that you don't always get what you want. but you can't let that stop you. 
This summer i was able to go to Frontier Ranch with Young Life. It was LIFE CHANGING. 
Honestly, it amazes me to see what all God has created for me, and to think that i do not even come close to thanking him nearly as much as i need to. This pains me. IT Breaks my heart. To think that the things in life are all gifts for me, and i take each one of them for granted. What a Shame! 
School starting back soon is difficult, and i know that i need to work harder than ever this year. You always hear Junior Year is the year that matters. Well I'm here. And i am Scared!
 Junior Year means: SAT's, ACT's, Prom, College Searching and Driving
All so much to work on! 
These things scare me. to death. The Future scares me. really it does. I am constantly worrying about every little thing i am doing. wondering how it will effect my future. But as I sit here and contemplate all that lies ahead of me, I start to wonder, which leads to thinking. I realize that as much as i would love to make a perfect score on my SAT and ACT; and as much as i want the "perfect" prom date, and to never miss a curfew with driving. i have NO control over this at all. This is very tough to grasp. 
now yes, i can study very hard, search each and every guy in the school, and leave early from every place i am coming from. But ultimately that is trying to determine my future. And it is all in God's hands. A phrase my dad taught me was "it is what it is". I need to let my future go, accept that God knows what it is, and it WILL be wonderful! I need to work on living in the moment and not wishing my life away. and i need prayer, and accountability. I cannot do this alone. 
I have some decisions to make coming up in the next few years, but i cannot make them selfishly. Which, i will not lie, is tough. I am considering YWAM. Which would be a very big deal. I am asking for prayer and advice! 
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I love you all, 
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord, "Plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." ~Jeremiah 29:11


  1. Wow... I'm not sure what to say other than if you ever need advice or help just call because I just went through all that crap you are talking about and i still am. I'm always here for you :)

    Just reading this, you are such and encouragement to me, in the way you are leanring to trust God. YOU GO GIRL!
    Love you!
    -Hannah D.

    ps. we are geting together soon

  2. i love you and miss you best friend!
    how have you been, you should start blogging with me! :)