Sunday, August 23, 2009

There's No Such Thing as Perfect People.

Sorry I haven't been on here in awhile. I'll do a quick recap of my week. 
Monday- Half day. lameee. I find half days quite possibly the most pointless days a school can have, you walk into the classroom and hear "it's going to be a great year, here is your syllabus. get it signed." and then you leave. 
Tuesday- I got a pretty good feel for my classes. i really like my english class, english happens to be my favorite subject. Writing is something i enjoy. 
Wednesday- i had my first softball game of the year. We won, which was a big deal. I really do enjoy spending time with my team mates. I'm making some good friends. But the final score was 6 to 3.
Thursday- Thursday seemed like it was never going to end. It just felt like the longest day of the week. 
Friday- we had yet another softball game. we played troup county and won 12-4, grabbed dinner with the team and then  was able to hang out with friends. 
Saturday- my family drove to Atlanta to spend time with mom's side of the family. My cousins really are great, and i wish that i could see them more. 
Today- i slept later than i have for awhile which was oh so nice. Now i am doing homework waiting for Casey to come over to help me with algebra 2 homework. 

My mom and I have been talking a lot lately about the phrase "Now that I am here- What's next Lord?" this is what i try to wake up each morning saying. Some mornings it's the easiest thing in the world to say and other mornings I have to really make myself say it. But i say it because I feel like by saying it I am letting God have full control. Not that he doesn't already have it, but i am telling him i will NOT argue anymore with him. Whatever he wants me to do next i will do.  Lately i feel like i am having trouble spending time with God because of school, softball and friends. STUPID EXCUSE i know. So that is one of my goals to MAKE time for God. The Lyrics"  There's no such thing as perfect people
There's no such thing as a perfect life
So come as you are, broken and scared
Lift up your heart and be amazed
And be changed by a perfect God"
are my new life lyrics you could call them. Not only have I not been able to find time for God lately, but I have been so scared that because i have messed up lately, he will not want to hear from me. But he DOES want to. How great is that? (:
So tell me, what is your life lyric or key quote? 
my cousins make me happy :)

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Stop and Stare.

Boy, was it hot today. Not just kind of hot, it was i need to constantly carry around a bottle of water with me hot. Today I worked down at the Rivercenter, Monkey Joe's had a jump down there and Jessica, a fellow employee, and I were assigned to it. When we got down town this morning, at 9 o'clock, nobody was there, so we drove through historic columbus. It is oh so pretty! I've been down there many times but i've never really stopped and looked. I feel like that's my thing, I've seen things before but if i really took the time to stop and look at it, I could see so much more! Lately, the world has been revolving around me, wait let me correct that. MY world has been revolving around me. but it's gotten better. and I am still working on it! Now, not only do i want to make the step of not being so self centered but i want to stop and really look a life. Which leads into my this week i learned.
This week, while i actually stopped to see what was around me I learned.. . . .
-Softball is my outlet, if i have ANY anger I get it out in the field.
- My best friend really is there for me whenever i need her to be.
- I need God in my life every single day, every single second of the day.
- Olive Garden's bread sticks are the bomb. (:
- Communication is the KEY to any relationship, whether it be friendship or dating.
- Trust is something I am finally being able to gain.
- the thought of YWAM excites me so much i want to explode!
- I really will miss my friends that have gone off to college.
- School starts tomorrow and I cannot wait to have something to focus all of my attention on.
- Being left handed is something i really like about myself.
- God thinks that I am beautiful and that is more than any human could ever tell me.
- Down Town is one of my favorite places ever.
- My church really does fill me up, and i genuinely enjoy going there.
- I'm not scared of what people think of me anymore.

That's all for now, I had something else that i was going to blog about, BUT, i lost it. :(

I'm off to get ready for school tomorrow
i like this picture quite a bit, i took it at frontier. (:

this picture really brings out the full of emotion of frontier (: hahaha.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Such A Gross Day.

It's gross outside today.
When i stepped outside i got the same feeling i get when i step out of the shower and my bathroom is warm, and moist because my shower was so hot.

This morning i went to get my haircut and I noticed it was not pretty outside at all. It's one of those days when you could just throw your hair into a ponytail and go. But because I have bangs i cannot, and I have to style my hair is some way. :/
my haircut, i think i like it :)

This Week, I've finally learned, life goes on.
Just because I am having a bad day does not mean everyone else in the world is. This is tough to realize, because me, being a teenage girl, feels like the world revolves around me. NEWS FLASH: It doesn't. I feel like that is what God has been trying to show me all week. The world does not revolve around Hannah. I have been acting selfish and inconsiderate in my past, but no more. I can't change in a day, but i can start working on changing today. So today, on this Thursday in August I will try to change. This is one of my favorite verses. And so is the next one. 

Matthew 6:25-34 
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?  Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 

Psalm 46
"God is our refuge and strength, 
an ever-present help in trouble. 
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way 
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, 
though its waters roar and foam 
and the mountains quake with their surging."

so here's where you come in, tell me what helps you when you worry about the future or get too caught up in yourself. Let me know, we can chat :) 
my sister makes me smile (: 

Sunday, August 9, 2009

This Week I Learned.

This week, was an interesting week. It went by very slow. But I still learned quite a bit.
1. My Friends mean the world to me.
2. God is not someone who will desert you in times of need.
3. Steak n' Shake milkshakes make me very happy! (:
4. I do not get paid enough at work.
5. Making youtube videos with my friends are mega fun.
6. Sometimes the smallest thing can turn your whole day around.
7. Summer is almost over, but I actually can't wait for school to start back!
8. Softball really does wear me out.
9. Time heals everything.
10. (: smoothies make me happy.
11. I cannot wait until i get my new camera ( i am in the process of saving up for it )
12. I write better than i talk, which sounds silly but it's true.
13. Drop Dead Diva is a show my mom and I really like.
14. Taylor Swift songs really do describe my life.
15. Summer reading is a real waste of time.
16. Life really does fly by.
17. Burned Cd's are the best, they're fun.
18. I want my voice to sound like Sara Bareilles
19. I love receiving bumper stickers from friends.
20. By your Side, by tenth avenue North really is my favorite song at the moment. 
go check it outttt :))

Friday, August 7, 2009

Things I Want To Accomplish In My Lifetime.

Here is a list I have been compiling lately of things I want to do before I die. 
Some are silly, but all are true (: enjoy.

1. Get Married. 
2. Have Children.
3. Grow closer to God everyday. 
4. Go to college.
5. Learn how to play the guitar.
6. Re-learn to play the piano.
7. Find Someone I can love with all of my heart.
8. Go on a mission trip.
9. Be in two places at once.
10. really find out how many licks it takes to get to the center of a tootsie pop. 
11. Go to Alaska.
12. make a disposable camera with a self timer. 
13. Apologize to the people I have hurt in life.
14. Find a place in columbus no one else knows about. 
15. grow the courage to sing in front of an audience. 
16. Eat a whole container of publix's chocolate chip cookies by myself.
17. go to Italy, and Rome. 
18. Help out with Young Life while I'm in College.
19. Do work crew next summer. 
20. Enjoy life. 
21. Go Crowd Surfing
22. Dance in the Rain.
23. Skydive 
24. Camp Under the northern lights.
25. Get Married on the beach. 
26. play with monkeys. 
27. Put my poems into some type of book. 
28. ride a camel, I'm not too sure why i just though it would be fun. 
29. Meet Keith Urban. 
30. Have great friends to make memories with. 

Thursday, August 6, 2009

What a Day.

Today I was able to do one of my favorite things in the world. babysit. For possibly the cutest little boy in the world. 
(: we had some fun! He's quite a catch.  

Today was tough at softball, We worked quite hard, but i still enjoy it. 
School starts in a week, scary to think about, yet exciting! 
I can't wait to see everyone and get back into the swing of things. 
I can't help but to wonder if God likes school starting back for kids because we get so busy that sometimes God is not our first priority, which it terrible but true. 
One of my goals this year is to make time for God everyday,  because this summer it's been very flexible but it's not so flexible when school does start. 
But Mark my words, I WILL make time for him, because he makes time for me! 
I'm continuing to pray about my decisions regarding YWAM. and my future. 
I'm excited to see what God has in store for my life! 
I'm Off to the lake for a bit, with some friends and I am dying to go tubing! 
Trying to take in the last little parts of summer! 

(: this picture will always bring a smile to my face, these girls make me happy! 
i miss frontier terribly. 

peace outtttt. 
(: hannah 

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

25 Facts About the "New Hannah"

1. I LOVE little kids, they excite me and I really do love my job. 
2. I over analyze conversations, situations and chance happenings way too much.
3. I love converse, really i tend to wear them too much but they are comfy. 
4. I detest Chinese food, carbonated drinks and sushi. 
5. I love fishing, and wish i could go every day, it relaxes me. 
6. On a rainy afternoon, i love nothing more than to curl up in my bed with a good book, or take a nap. 
7. I have an odd obsession with the show CSI:Miami.
8. I constantly feel like I am not good enough because i want to be able to please everyone. If i had it my way i would be able to, but i can't so i am working on it.
9. Writing poems is something i really enjoy. i feel like people can feel my real emotions in poems. 
10. I am left- Handed. and apparently most left handed people die from using things made for right handed people, so i guess i'm just out of luck. 
11. My car still has a tape player, yes it's that old. Her name is Edna. 
12. Starbucks smoothies and Fraps. make me smile (:
13. Traffic lights bother me, because I am one of those people who manages to hit every red light with i'm running late. 
14. The endings to the movies Titanic and A Walk To Remember will always make me cry. 
15. My favorite quotes normally come from songs. they seem to tell the story of my life.
16. I like making people laugh and smile.
17. I hate it when people see me cry, or when i am vulnerable. I typically build up walls to hide what i am feeling.
18. I hardly ever answer my phone, ask anyone, but i'm getting better. something about there could be an emergency and no one could get ahold of me (:
19. I have a green and yellow monkey named Jack who i sleep with every night. 
20. I love to sing, i'm not the best at it but that doesn't stop me! 
21. I love meeting new people. but sometimes my first impression throws people off because I seem shy; then they get to know me! (:
22. I tend to hear about diseases or sicknesses somewhere and then begin to freak myself out and wonder if i have the symptoms. 
23. I am really not a morning person. 
24. Young Life is something I Have a Passion for, working with kids in general. 
25. I want someone to write me letters one day and send them by mail, i feel like no one ever does that anymore but it is one of the sweetest things ever! 

my friends make me incredibly happy, and I'm not quite sure where i'd be without them. 

Monday, August 3, 2009

Man, I Wish I could Have Done That.

Today after softball, I ran by dads office. 
We chatted for quite some time, just about nothing really important. But then we got to talking and I started to talk to him about the HUGE choice of YWAM. and how I totally wanted it to be a God thing, i didn't want to get down there and it to be all about me. Upon my dad hearing all of this, he decided to tell me a story about how during college he decided he was going to save up his money, buy a Jeep and drive out West. He was going to go see the Grand Canyon, go fishing and see the Rocky Mountains. But he never did, and he said "I still to this day, wish that I had dome that." That is the one thing i do NOT want to happen to me. I don't want to look back on my life in 10 years and say "man, I wish I had done this." So with that motive I have decided, I will begin today and start to pray for a year. About my decision regarding YWAM. If you would like to pray for me then please do, it would be greatly appreciated. 
Today has been a funny day, full of ups and downs. 
(: Lucy and I are meeting friends at the mall, so you might want to stay off the road because, YES ladies and Gentlemen, I am driving us. ha. 
It's exactly two weeks until school starts back, and I have oh so much to do!
I am looking forward to soaking up the sun in these next two weeks. 
i love my familyyyyy (: the last picture makes me laugh. 

Sunday, August 2, 2009

This Week, the "New Hannah" has Learned . . .

What I've Learned this week:
- Tootsie Pops make me happy, especially red ones.
- My parents are my best friends, and when the rest of the world walks away, they step in. 
- God has so much in store for my life, and i have to learn to trust him.
- Slip n' slides make me happy (:
- My Friends mean the world to me.
- Waking up to Bebo Norman is the best! 
- Waiting is tough, but sometimes you have to wait. 
- Work makes me happy, i really enjoy the people that i work with. 
- Starbucks Double Chocolate Chip Frap.'s get me through the day.
- I never grow tired of converse.
- Summer Reading makes me antsy.
- I miss Frontier Ranch.
- I miss being a little kid.
- God is a humorous God. 
- Life isn't all about me. 
-Things don't always work out but God is always in control.
- O'Charley's chicken finger salad makes me very happy (:
- I WILL get through the tough times, because even when i have nothing to lose because I've hit rock bottom, i still have God. 
- School starting back almost excites me, because it gives me something to focus on. 
- I'm ready for summer to be over, great fun while it lasted but now it's time to move on.

Today in church Pastor Keith talked about how God didn't try to reach out the the people who were righteous, he reached out to the sinners. So it got me thinking, i am a sinner, but if by me admitting that means God is going to reach out to me, is going to love me unconditionally, then HEY i don't have a problem with that at all. 
(: busy day ahead of me. 
not too much going on. I'm grabbing lunch with Tamara and dinner with Lindsey. Hopefully meeting up with Casey in a bit, but whatever happens i know that God is with me. 
these pictures make me laugh (:

Saturday, August 1, 2009

I Wonder If That's How We Are?

This morning when i arrived at work, i was in a foul mood,i was running late, i did not get too much sleep last night and i didn't eat breakfast. Which all sums to a GREAT morning, not. so arriving at work, i was angry. When I went to cash in my drawer I  was praying today would not feel too long. Praying that it would just go by quickly and painlessly. Boy, was I wrong. When my first customer walked up, a man and his two sons, i tried to put on a happy face while asking what the kids what they wanted. The father argued with them about what they could have and I just sat watching, waiting for them to tell me. It was frustrating, but finally they came to a decision. Next, a father and his daughter walked up. The father was on his phone and looked rather annoyed. The little girl was gripping onto his let and he was trying to shake her off. When she could not get his attention that way she decided to try to grab his arm and tug on it, getting even more frustrated, he took the phone away from his head, and loud whispered to her "If you don't stop this right now, you will be in big trouble later." but she wouldn't stop. he couldn't see that all she wanted was his attention, all she wanted was him to notice her. And he was blowing her off. Finally she laid on the ground and started to scream as loud as she could. she was out of control! everyone was staring at her and no one knew what to do. Her father was not even paying her the slightest bit of attention.

 And then i got to thinking, Thank Goodness my Heavenly father isn't like that. Imagine if every time we wanted God's attention, he acted like he was busy, or on the phone not paying us any attention. I don't know about you, but i would HATE that!
so then i got to thinking, as sad as it sounds, that's how I am. When God is longing to spend time with me, when he is pulling on my arm all i can say is "not now God, maybe later." and that kills him. Just like that little girl, it breaks his heart. Why do i do this you ask, because I want to find something bigger, better. But there is nothing better. And so from now on, that won't happen anymore. I will start to make time for God, because he is making time for me. 
So that is what's been on my mind today. (:
work was fun, it ended up being a pretty decent day. 
Dull night tonight, but i am looking forward to spending time with my family. 
my best friend can always bring a smile to my face (: